When You Go Out Of Your Way

How many times have you gone out of your way to only get burned? It's funny how we never learn our lessons. If you find yourself going out of your way to be nice and they give you nothing, what do you do after that?

I never can learn my lessons. Why is that? It's a natural thing for me to smile at people, be nice, say hello. Maybe help someone that just fell down. Or drop my bag cause an old man has lost his balance and I run to catch him before he falls. Why do I do this??

I think the older I get and the more bullshit I get from people - whoever they may be - I just don't give a rat's ass anymore. If somebody wants to act like a shit with me, then you'll get it right back. I'm so tired of smiling things off. Smiling and trying to be nice and then some little shit wants to give me an attitude. Nowadays, I find myself busy with hobbies. I'm getting my things together and going back to acting school. My new place is great and I'll be painting it soon. I remember being nice to my super and then one day she thought she would get nasty with me like I was gonna cry or something. She was minutes away from going home with a broken jaw.
See? People don't respect you when you're nice. I feel like a brand new me has emerged. I've decided not to be nice to anyone anymore. Unless they are nice to me.

That's it.