Acting Therapy 101

I always liked acting. When I young, I did alot of it and made my family laugh. I was no comedian, but I enjoyed goofing around. I use to pretend I was beating people. I would grab my sister from behind and drag her off behind a wall and then hit the door as she would yell out, "ouch, ouch, ouch, please stop, ouch!" And everyone would laugh. I also did a good impression of a dead body being dragged off. But you'd only see my legs. I would then slide back in a dramatic way to make you think someone was dragging me.

I won an award for that one. A twinkie. :)

So in class I often got roles that were dramatic. Sometimes I had to goof off, but I realized I was not a funny person. I then started to realize I was in therapy.

I used alot of my anger and emotions that were still lingering from my ex-boyfriend. The perfect monolog brought out the pain and my teacher was pleased. Along the way, I had more pain to use in my acting. And eventually I killed someone in front of 15 people. Did I just express a major part of my anger in class??

Well I'm watching my favorite soap and people are gettig killed. One scene had me crying like a baby as he bent over and begged her not to leave him, once again. She dies gracefully and I can't stop crying. I use the moment to gather my monolog thoughts and in I go. Then I had to stop cause I heard, "CUT!" I have to do the scene again. So I go back into that moment and I cry. Jesus, crying is easy for me. Am I that emotional?? Is this therapy or what? I walked away learning something new about myself. I also learned that I am more of a dramatic actor than a comedian. Acting Therapy 101, I call it. You can come out messed up. One guy might have realized he WAS molested as a child, after his scene. Crazy...