Remembering When

On this Monday, I sit here thinking back on the times I had some years ago. When I dated stupid guys. When I got on my first plane trip with a boyfriend. When I found myself depressed over some stupid asswipe and found myself wondering what I did wrong. "HELLOOO! Lani, you've done nothing wrong. It's him." That's what my buddy inner-self would say and my girlfriends. Ha. There are times when I actually do think about my actions and if I'm wrong, I'm wrong. But most of the time, I was right.

So one day I get a phone call and it was an ex. He told me he did something stupid and when he told me, I could have gotten in a cab and gone to beat him til nothing was left of his head but his tongue. But then I said, "My outfit is new." So I didn't go. Instead, I sat back and wondered what was truely wrong with him. Til this day I still think he has problems, but that's not my problem anymore. It'll be the problem of his next victim. So I pray that my ex-boyfriends stop whining, cheating and lying to people.

What brought this on?? Fumbling through things and finding pictures or cards? Didn't I burn those things years ago? Not sure why THAT's still in my draw. Not like I'm holding on to memories. Why I can't stand the thought of thinking of any ex of mine. Then I start thinking....why did I ever go out with them in the first place? I think that happens later in life after you've gotten them out of your system. You find a picture of them and you say, "eww."

Well, I shouldn't be so hard on them right? Well, they lied, cheated and hurt my feelings. So why should I be nice? There was this ONE guy who can I honestly say was horrible. I pray that he finds himself and not do the stupid things he once did with me or this time he'll find himself not only trying to escape the woman's grips of death, but also trying to escape some dark room where he's been blind folded, beaten and left to die.

Ouch, right? Right?

Well I've pretty much BEEN over all the drama for a long time now. Just remembering when. I'm doing great these days and loving my life. Looking forward to the future and possible plans. ;)

Well HAPPY MONDAY Y'ALL!!